Waiting the week out

This time next Sunday I'd have finished with this whole kerfuffle.  I'm filled ith anxieties:have I trained enough? eaten enough? recovered enough? slept enough? Overall, the current win is succeeding at making the mornings not only bearable, but actually enjoyable. For this I had to let go of late night reading with wine after the kids' bedtime.. This is something I really miss.   I have been agonising over what sort of marathon will my body and mind do next Sunday.   Will everything come together and stay together and I'll be able to get a good time for a first timer?  How will the experience be after km30? I've never ran more than 30km at once.  Will it matter (I hope so) that everyone is going the same way, no stopping at shops to buy water, or stopping at traffic lights, or look at map?  Will I feel overwhelmed or in machine mode in my element?   I have decided to video log every 10km or when something interesting happens, but I won't do that if/when I hi